I broke down right then and there. I knew my life was over as I signed out of my doctor’s office bawling my eyes out. I began drinking heavily every night to cover up everything I couldn't deal with, but one day my mom came in and told me this: you can't let this disease control you like this. My point to this is, find some sort of positive support from the time you find out until the time you can rely on yourself. You are not the disease, it's a part of you. You are in control of this.
I know I have a lot more to go through with HIV in the future. But just remember - trust the people you tell that they aren't going to judge you, but help you and be there for you. Life is precious. Keep your head up and realize everything always works out like it's supposed to and hurt is only temporary."