I am currently 6 months pregnant, I am 25 and found out that I have HIV when I went to my first OBGYN appointment. I just got married a month prior to the man of my dreams. When they told us my whole world stopped, I couldn't breathe. I looked at my husband and my eyes filled with tears. I was petrified – for my life and the life of my unborn child. My husband immediately held me close while I cried. He asked to be tested as well. His test came back negative. Thank god! But then I thought for sure he was going to leave me... And I wouldn't blame him.
If I wouldn't have become pregnant right when I did and found out I was positive ... I would be dead by next year. This baby saved my life and I am so grateful for that. My husband did not leave me… Our relationship is so strong now because of this. I appreciate my family and everyone and thing so much more… I appreciate a beautiful day and a wet kiss from my dog.
My biggest fear is that my baby will be born positive. I am on medications to prevent it. So hopefully the baby will be healthy. I do feel like an outcast. I ask myself why me every day, I rack my brain wondering who could have given it to me... I guess I will never know and I have to look ahead and be thankful for my husband and my baby on the way.
As told in: http://www.avert.org/living-with-hiv/stories/aikiko#sthash.51KHkXkD.dpuf